Good bye.

I just realized my previous post was the 100th O.O

Wow 100, it's too bad there were casualties in this battle and we lost some troops.  To push through the enemy lines and conquer "busy."  I actually shot a few friendly fires...  Oh well.

I feel like I should do something special so I'll just have my one-person celebration.  I can't say it's a very happy celebration though.  To get to this 100th post, the last few months haven't been easy, keeping the blog alive the recent months have been harder as we all began to lose interest.  I'm sorry to say that we're probably going to loose more troops in the battle for teacup the blog, but the teacup organization is as good as retired.  We had our most happiest moments and some of our most saddest, but we cannot rest easy anymore, our superpowers are taking over our minds and if we continue we'll just end up destroying the world.  This blog only brings bad memories of these last few months.

This blog will still be here for us to relive our memories, but we're (I'm not sure who the "we" is) moving up to starting a new blog.  Sadly, it's going to be private.

So now, I leave you all with a good bye.
-FriendlyFIRE

iPod Wallpaper

Instead of doing my math portfolio and my ToK essay, I decided to take it easy for mornings and go into hyper homework-mode at like 3 (never worked but hey, worth trying... hundredth time the charm).

Anyways, I spent some time this weekend changing my iPod's looks again :P.  Now it came from a cute theme to a cool one :D.  I can't stop fussing over the wallpaper though, I love it ;D

Doesn't that just look awesome?  And with my new theme, it fits perfectly. Anyways, recently I checked my iPod to see how much memory I had left in my iPod, and I was so shocked to see 0.1/8GB left... Jailbreaking an iPod does that to you, you can do so many things you forget that you're under a limit.  So as a result, I've been removing all the games I never play, removing other useless stuff, and I'm happy I'm now above 1GB left :D

Well, aside from fooling around with my iPod, watching movies, reading manga, my weekends are never that exciting... I don't really talk to many people and usually, I'm just the loser stuck at home.  I should get out more... On the up side, I wasn't exactly bored.  I mean I enjoy doing what I do and I wasn't bored this weekend, though I have a feeling I will be bored today, perfect time for homework then :D

Until next time,
- FriendlyFIRE

Trouble

RE: Doctor's all the way~

What's worse than being the bad kidnapper stranger guy to an unsuspecting child is being their role model. I can't tell you how many times adults have pointed to me and told their child "you should be quiet like older sister."

The kids give me the weirdest faces [as if I'm suddenly on their hit list] or they act even worse than before.

I remember I was sitting at the doctor's office and there was a little boy sitting on the floor. He refused to sit on the chair, not because he wasn't tall enough but there were toys on the ground. His mom wouldn't let him play with them so he started to act out and throw random shit around.

She then looks at me and went, "See how quietly she's sitting? Learn from older sister."

Now I was half asleep so I didn't really care until he started dragging his butt across the floor and crying. I didn't know learning from me was that bad.

Speaking of doctors, I went to the doctor today with my mom because she had a question about my medicine. She pulled out an extra bottle of pills, like those fish oil ones and asked if these were appropirate for my age.

My doctor then replies:

"If you gave her liver protection pills, she'll probably get liver infections."

Thank you mom for feeding me these for the past two months.

Doctors all the way~

So, I was sitting in the doctor's office on Monday, and a women with her child was there.  She suddenly pointed at a random stranger and told her son, "If you don't behave that women will take you away!"  I realized how funny that is that people make threats like that.  Personally, I was never the accused kidnapper (well duh, I'm not the least bit scary, I bet the kid would just laugh), but I'm glad.  It's somewhat offensive that someone refers to you as this strict kidnapping psycho that knows what you [the kid] are doing without looking at you.

On another note, I've become some crazed Grey's Anatomy fan, before you all scrunch your faces in disgust, I would like to say something in my defense...  I've got nothing... sure it's a multiple award winning show with a fantastic and hot cast, but that doesn't mean much does it?  Anyways, I can't wait for today's episode, Demi Lovato is guest staring!  That's not the reason I'm excited though, I'm not her fan or anything, but the episode deals with a teenage patient who is suicidal and tries to claw her eyes out because she has schizophrenia and feels like she feels everything in her body, those things that we normally cannot feel that happens inside our body.  I'm always up for good teenage insanity (and seeing a Disney star in a more serious role is interesting)!

Bye until next time!

-FriendlyFIRE

Hi. Hello.

The only reason I was gone was because I deleted my google account email so I could switch to another email. However, I forgot to add myself before deleting it and accidentally kicked myself out of TEACUP.

Please, hold your applause.

In other news, things in TEACUP have been very shaky and with the departure of our two ex-members, we are standing on thin ice.

However, I hear the weather is getting colder so I guess the rest of the water will freeze over and we'll be able to skate on it again no sweat.

And now for actual exciting news, I've been enrolled in a summer camp created by the Vietnamese community for those who are 17 years of age and older run by white people. I'll be gone the summer before university so mark your calenders.

(Bold is you)

Why are you telling me this?
You need to sign up early to get acceptance.

Why are you going?
Because I need various skills that will be useful in my future job as some kind of vetrinarian. Oh and my mom signed me up without premission.

What skills would you learn there that will be helpful?
Skills like hiking, rock climbing and swimming. Durr. All vets need to know that.

Oh my bad.
Apology accepted.

But I didn't-
Sorry, what was that? I can't hear you over my excitement of going to summer camp when I'm 18.

Last Words of a Bitchy Soul

Duu duu duu ~

I'm not going to write an elegant lyrical piece to explain my emotions (I agree it's pretty but not very practical to my approach).  I wanted to get it out of my system.  I was the arsonist behind this fire.  I take the blame, although I guess people would object, nonetheless, I take the blame.  I over think, I'm a demanding bitch, I accept it.  At this point, I am going to take the easy, cowardly way out of the situation, and I will no longer mention what has happened, after this post, I will feign ignorance to everything (like what some of you hoped I would do, in other words, stop thinking so much).

I'm scared.  I'm terrified every time I confront people because I know it will make me feel like shit after words whether it was intended or not...  What brings me to confront people?  Because I care too much for absolutely no reason (from what I'm hearing).

What has made me this way?  Why do I think so much?  Hell, I have a fucken shit load of family problems that I don't even think as much about.  Show's where my priorities stand right?  I play ignorance to all my family matters, so why can't I with my friends?  Do you seriously think just because I never show depression towards family, that my life is just peachy perfect?  I have other things I should be worrying about.

So I give up.  Please don't drag me back in, re-awakening my emotions.  I love you all deeply, and I am terribly sorry this has happened to us because of me (clearly illustrated in my over-emotional feelings on Tuesday). I no longer know what you guys want to happen anymore.  These conflicting decisions and ideas just make me smirk at my lack of understanding.  I don't even have the emotions left to be sad... all I can feel right now is this emptiness...

I will not give up on this blog, I am going to continue posting just like I used to, I'm sorry I was actually about to post something I noticed was funny on Monday, but I couldn't bare to be funny after the depression I was overwhelmed with when our deeply treasured contributors left our blog...  But you know what?  Life goes on.

I'm sorry if this post attacked you all.  I totally understand if you hate me right now.  I don't deserve all of you.  I'm not worth you worrying about, I'm just this lowly emotional person whom you would be stupid to waste your time on.  I know creating a friendship with me has been more trouble than it has been worth.  Please don't get me wrong, I don't wanna further provoke you, but this is how I treat myself, this is my true self-esteem, my self-esteem is crap low and it has always been.  I have been hiding myself behind this facade.  I take the leader role because I feel so insecure that I believe if I don't do anything you'll all eventually get bored and leave.  My pride has forbidden me to say so, but you know what?  Screw pride.

- FriendlyFIRE

P.S.
LMAO I realized the irony behind my name.
Friendly - with nice intentions
Fire - the fire I started

3am; but your hand's on your head, cause your head's alright right

dear lovers,

i have been waiting for your presence. for the lightness in your step, and the smoothness of your slurs,--not to mention, how i have waited for the sweetness. i do not mean of sugar, or of fleeting words, or of faint interaction. i have waited for a subtle touch of humanity; of optimistic opinions and a settled fidelity.

and i have to tell you, i am not surprised.

for a while now, i have felt a sense of inconsistency. and when i reach from my throat the term 'while', i do not mean of weeks, or months, or a year. i mean a while; a long time of waiting, contemplating, of questioning, and hoping. a while used up with feelings i may as well regret, but with due respect may as well not. for, within the last few weeks i have been faced with comments beyond my naive understanding, of some love.

a lack of compassion, it is this lack of compassion, i feel, that leads to such things i have witnessed. and what i have witnessed, or what has come to my attention, has disgusted me. no matter what excuses following them, what explanations, what reasoning and sweetness in letters to words... i do not believe i will ever understand such strange, dysfunctional betrayal and disrespect.

i wanted to see a glimpse of the desire to understand. an interest. an attempt to keep way from ignorance. while i may confess, i am not such a person to abidingly commit to such ideals...

what seemed to start as a simple conversation has escalated to a short time of spite and confusion. and in this short time i have recognized the importance of some form of 'realization'. whatever form you may believe i am speaking of, i do hope you understand the fact that you may very well be wrong. because your estimates will never be accurate when it is me you are guessing about, my goodness, no. please wipe your slate clean and look at me again. look at everyone else again.

i've appreciated the time spent in this little page, and have always enjoyed reading the majority of these posts and will keep this with me. as well, i hope you all understand my decision has not been touched by another, as with all my other decisions. i hope this is not taken personally, and that perhaps soon we will have such great honour in forgetting all of this.

with all due respect and regret, i would like to resign from my position as a member of the teacup blog. it seems i cannot cope under the pressure after all.

love, with best interests,
nina.

Flying Away~

I am resigning from this blog, forever, because I am as the title suggests flying away =D

My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I..

got out of bed at all

The morning rain clouds up my window..

and I can't see at all

And even if I could it'd all be gray,

but your picture on my wall

It reminds me, that it's not so bad,

it's not so bad..(Dido)

Well its been six months since you last replied

to any of my letters, well at least I tried

I'm tired of waiting now and I'm finding answers

in other places looking deep in scarlet red, the answers

aren't what I wanted, sometimes I write the address to messy

I'll give you another chance, I'm tired of givin chances

but I give them hoping you'll give them a few glances

well I don know how to address you any more

Hello, how is everything? I feel like I can eat a boar

maybe we could meet up soon? This is not good

I don't even know what to write about any more

I'm getting the fire place ready now with some wood

just please reply to my letters, I'm not mad

it just seems you don't care and that makes me sad

well I'm sure you can make time to write me a letter

at least once a month in your busy life

I know your schedule, by the way I got rid of my knife

it was causing to many scarlet fountains

flooding what we once moved, the mountains

I just cant stop screaming its all just to clear

well that's all for now talk to you next year

when we're 18 and then I'll really shed a tear

I can't bare to care any longer it's been to rough

but I'll give you one more laugh

Its my time to fly away south like the birds

My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I..

got out of bed at all

The morning rain clouds up my window..

and I can't see at all

And even if I could it'd all be gray,

but your picture on my wall

It reminds me, that it's not so bad,

it's not so bad..(Dido)

Bye.

-Greenpotatochip

p.s:

I'ma pick the world up and I’ma drop it on your fuckin’ head

Bitch, I’ma pick the world up and I’ma drop it on your fuckin’ head

And I could die now, Rebirth motherfucker

Hop up in my spaceship and leave Earth, motherf*cker

I’m gone

Motherfucker, I’m gone (Lil Wayne)

Unlit Candle~

-Greenpotatochip

Flower 3 of 3~

-Greenpotatochip